motivation…

… now… does that mean your motivation for falling more in love with christ is because of the person you are dating? or how about the reason for you is because you are a life group leader or have other people in your life looking up to you, so you feel the need you have to grow closer to jesus. is your motivation based on if you are not close to jesus he will not bless you?.. or is your motivation based on the on the ’spiritual high’ experience you get when you are close to god? i feel a lot of times that i cheat myself out of the joy of falling in love with jesus by replacing it with a motivation that seems good. and after a while i just become tired and jaded, because i lost sight of the beauty of christ, i lost the only motivation i should have for falling in love with jesus more and more each day – the desperation of him, of how he is the only one that can rescue me and quench the thirst that is so deep in my soul, that beauty that i long for all of my life, finally here… yea, cheat myself from the true joy, the joy of realizing the beauty of christ – the real motivation that i should have for pursuing after jesus.

my prayer is for all us to see and to be reminded the beauty of the cross, and let that be our only motivation for chasing after jesus like fools without a single care in the world.